2009

I have a lot of goals for 2009. My main goal is to quit smoking. I haven't had a cigarette since I got really sick on Christmas Eve. I figured that I might as well go ahead and try to quit. Quitting cold turkey along with being sick has been a real challenge! My body is majorly screwed up right now! It is going to be really hard for me because the reason I smoke is to cope with my anxiety. It was very windy yesterday and I starting hyperventilating because I didn't have my stress relief.

Another thing I would like to do is lose some weight so I can try to conceive this year. The chances of me being able to have a VBAC increases with me being in shape. I can't bear to have another traumatic C-Section. I really want Amaya to have a playmate close in age to her. My baby fever increases every day because it seems like everyone is pregnant again and my little brother's wife is about to have a baby.

I am hoping that 2009 brings me better luck than it did last year. Hopefully there will be no big storms anywhere and there can finally be peace in Israel and Iraq.